dough rising 発酵中

Hello people,

I was so tired of walking in the snow today but somewhat relieved to have the normal seasonal weather finally. 

Oh Global Warming...

Right now, so many ideas are being fermented in my head. 

Not just the buns in the pic.

I can't wait to share these ideas with you when they are ready.

They are not in any kind of tangible form yet. They are only in my head. Still, it is just so exciting when you know you have some fun ideas to realize. 

Also, as I wrote before, I am taking driving lessons nowadays. 

Whenever I take a part in the larger part of society like this, I just come to realize I am so awkward. I know in my musician community, I am one of musicians. I am perfectly normal.

 But once I step out of that comfort zone, I am just a minority who is betting all her youth to this thing called music that doesn't pay much  and don't know how to mingle.

But I don't think I am good at working in the office. I guess I can but I know I suck.

I am sure I will panic if I try to work fast-pace large scale restaurants. I am only good at dining at one of those places.

Well, however, I think over these few years, I slowly started doing things I am relatively better at. 

Or, I started to learn what I am really good at and make most out of it.

At least, that is how I feel lately.

Anyway, this past week made me feel very humble and happy to know that I am living for what I love.

So thank you for helping me do that. 

Love,

Yuki

やっほー皆さん。こんばんは。

やっと季節らしい気候で、寒さにはうんざりですが、どこかほっとしてます。

温暖化なのかなあ、やっぱ。

今現在、色んなアイデアが私の頭の中で絶賛発酵中。

写真のかぼちゃパンだけでなく。

形にして皆に見せるのが楽しみ！

久々にわくわくしてる〜。新しいことを０から始めるときのこの感じ！

たは〜。

やっぱ、こう自分が楽しくなくっちゃね。

前にも書いたけど、今自動車の免許取るために講習受けてます。

ああやって社会の広いとこから色んな人が来る場所に出ると、

音楽なんてやってる自分が社会のはじで生きてるんだなあ、って実感しちゃう。

なんていうか、、、私本当に不器用というかばかで、うまくできないことのほうが多いのよね。

事務とか計算が雑だから無理だし。

回転の速いお店とかの売り子さんもパニックになって多分無理。

でも、この数年ってさ、やっと自分が得意なことを仕事に出来て来たと言うか、得意なことを見つけ出して来たのか、なんとなく社会の片隅で生きてるなりに自信がついてきた、気がする。

気がする、だけかもだけど。

今週は、そんなことをより噛み締めた、忙しいけど思うところのいっぱいあった一週間でした。

毎日、自分の好きで納得できることが出来て幸せです。

ありがとう。

愛をこめて、

悠起子

The girl in the corner is supposed to be me, according to Atsumi, Robin’s Egg Blue 

Kabocha buns. Kabocha pumpkin is the king of pumpkins.