現在外の気温１５度。さむいです。
先週親知らずを抜きました。
わりと心の準備もなく、唐突に。
すでに三本抜いていたのですが、そのときは全部うんと簡単に終わり腫れもしなかったので、たかをくくっていたけど、今回は違います。
切って骨を削って、くりぬいて、、、の大仕事。もうDIYの世界よね。
大工仕事の方がどんなに楽しい事でしょうか。
五日ほど経った今もじんじん痛いし、口が指一本くらいしか開きません。
熱い物はいかんというし、スムージー(豆乳とバナナの手作り。念のため)とかスープとかおじやとかばっかり最初食べてたんです。
だけどさ、もう辛いの。
や〜、食欲あるのに、食べれないのがこんなに辛いとは。
固くて、あつあつで、大きな塊のものを食べれる世の中のひとが全てうらめしかったです。
唐揚げとかさ。サツマイモとか。おにぎりとか。
私のうらめしい顔、、、周りの人にはさぞや恐ろしかった事でしょう．
三日位して、もう無理！私にタンパク質を！暖かい物を！
と思って、ソロンタンをものすごい時間をかけて食べたら、
びっくりするくらい元気でて、腫れた頬もそのとき楽になった感じでした。
食べる事は、生きる事。
ってこんなに腹の底から実感したのは久々。
もちろん普段はきっともっとそんな考えずに意識の浅いところで、楽しんでるけど。
そのソロンタンの後、今は食べづらいけど、やっぱりちゃんと作ろうって思ったら今度は台所の水道管に大穴が。。。
この週末、全く料理もできなくなっちゃった。
たった一日でも、料理出来ないと辛い。。
そして、料理がどんなに私の気晴らしになってるかを、しみじみ実感。
なんとなくどんよりして、実家とスカイプをしたら、姪と甥が半年ぶりに喋るブランクがあったのに、
唐突にお尻踊りをして、あげくに絶叫で歌ってくれて、ちょっと元気でた〜。
スカイプ越しに見る日本はまだまだうんと暑そう。。。
日本の皆さん、食欲なくても食べて元気で乗り切ってくださいな。
(By the way, I updated the English version of last entry if anyone is reading it...)
It's 61°F outside. So cold.
I had a wisdom tooth extraction last week.
I wasn't really ready for it but I was sort of lead into the situation.
I had already had the other three teeth taken out before. Those came off so easily and didn't hurt at all afterwards.
And this time? Alas. Oh my.
They cut, drilled, and scraped it out...
Doesn't it sound like I am talking about home improvement? I so wish it was because that would be so much fun...
It has been about five days since the surgery, but it still hurts and I can barely open my mouth.
For the first three days, I was so cautious so I avoided hot or chunky foods and kept eating smoothies (homemade with soymilk and banana, just so you know), soup, or porridge.
But you know what? It stinks!!!
I never realized that, for me, not being able to eat when I have a healthy appetite is this painful up until now.
I was staring at people who's eating whatever they want with lamenting face, which must have been so scary.
But my patience was gone after 3 days, so I had Korean beef broth soup.
I took as much time as I needed to finish it.
Oh yes, I did finish it.
What surprised me was that I felt so much better afterward both emotionally and physically.
Even the swollen cheek felt like it eased down a bit.
To eat is to live.
It has been so long that I felt that simple truth from bottom of my heart.
In my day to day life, of course I enjoy eating and cooking, but maybe much more shallow level.
Just as pleasure, perhaps.
But after that fabulous Korean soup, I decided to cook something healthy and satisfying even though it is still very hard to eat.
Then I found a huge hole on the water pipe underneath the kitchen sink.
Seriously?
I could not cook at all this weekend....
Somehow, this past week has been teaching me how much eating and cooking mean to me.
Well, thank you to whoever is controlling my life above my head, I think I got that very well.
I started feeling little bit down so I skyped with my niece and nephew.
Though we hadn't spoken since January, they started dancing like a pair of maniacs and singing out of their lungs. Thanks kiddies, auntie Yuki feels much better now.
Looking through Skype, Japan is still very hot, right?
I hope you make it through till weather gets a bit easier, so please eat right.
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