よしもとばななの彼女についてに、あの救いの無いこの世の怖さの書き方とか、あらすじが似てるかも。
救いの全然ないなかの、小さく強く光るものみたいなもの。
ああやって誰かにしっかり愛されて育った人は、きっとちゃんと生きて行けるし、それが人間が唯一後に残していけるものって話だと思う。愛だよなあ。
生きてる人のほとんどは聖人なんかじゃないし、あのひとの映画に出てくる人は皆しっかり生きるための垢にまみれて汚いんだけど。
どんな仕事してようがよその人間を搾取しようが、親が子を思う気持に勝るものなし。
間違ってるかもだけど、そうであって欲しいなと思わされる映画。
今日はハドソン河の側まで行ったのでジャージーを川越しにちらみ。
すでに潮臭い水の匂いと春っぽい湿った空気を嗅ぐと、ホームシックになる。
こういう微妙な寒さはやや日本の早春ぽいものね。
自分にとって本当に深くすりこまれた大事なものって、考えなしに手放してひとめぐりして、
似てるものにまた再会してやっと気づくものなのかしら？
ずっと手に持っていたら気がつかなかったかも知れないこと。
今住んでるところだって生まれ育って家のように窓から日の出月の出、木々が見えるようにしてあるし。
結局はこうやって自分が来たところに戻るのかしら。
遠くに来たような気もするけど、案外全然そんなことはなく、ずっと一緒かも知れない。
そう思うと愕然。でもいい気分。
saw Inarritu's Biutiful finally.
Reminded me of Banana Yoshimoto's All about her (kanojo ni tsuite).
The way both describe the afterlife. And hopelessness of our world, I guess.
But there is the tiny but strong light in that despair darkness.
I think the point is that anyone who was loved like that even once in their life can survive somehow. Like that daughter in Inarritu's movie. That is probably we can definitely pass it along to the next generation. Love.
Most of us are not saint and we all have to struggle to live. We might have to do things we don't wanna do. Even things we are not so proud of doing. But none of that doesn't matter in front of the love of parents and sacrifice they make for their kids.
Maybe it is not true, but at least the movie made me wanna believe that.
I was close to the Hudson for some errands today so I had a quick walk by the river.
Today's dump mild air and salty smell of the water made me homesick like crazy.
This mild cold weather reminds me of the early spring of back home.
We don't realize what is truly important to us unless we thoughtlessly let go and find it in another form again?
I might have not known I loved them like this if I never made my move,
Come to think of it, no matter where I move, I have always made sure my windows face to the east so I will see moon and sun rising just like I did from my home.
I feel like I have come so far but inner me has not moved a step from where I am.
Surprise? Yes, but it is a good feeling.
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