Monday, September 21, 2009

about my music/ 音楽について

I know I have been writing about mostly food things.
Let me write about my music today.
We have recorded our first album over this summer.
And we are finishing up the mastering part this week.
It is almost done...
It will be all my songs that I have written earlier this year.
I have been singing since I was a teenager but it took me all these years to start writing my own music.
As a matter of fact, there were times that I even thought I might just give up on singing.
I worked full-time after college, which provided me financial security and a decent life.
But, I was not happy without singing.
I was not being who I truly am.
Sounds really banal, but it was just like that.
And when I realized that, I finally started trying to put my feelings into music.
First, just talking to myself while playing around with piano.
Then melody would come into my head like it has been waiting to be found.
I don't know what's the best words to describe that moment.
I knew it was somewhere in me, but finally I found and got an access to it.
Maybe it would feel like this when I give a birth? I don't know!
But I can't wait to show my treasures to you!

食べ物に関してばっかり書いてるので、ここらへんで自分の音楽について書いてみます。
この夏、初のアルバムを録音して、今週は最後のマスタリングの段階を進めているところです。もうすぐで完成するのね。。。
全曲今年書き下ろした私のオリジナル曲です。
10代から歌を始めたけれど、曲を書き始めるのに、今の今までかかってしまった。
そもそも歌うのやめた方がいいかな、って思った事も何度かあった。
大学を出てフルタイムで働いたし、安定した収入とそこそこの暮らしも味わったけど、
でもどこかで幸せじゃなかった。本当の自分に反してたから。
こうやって書くとすっごい陳腐だけど、でも過ぎてしまうとそうとしか言えない。
でもそう思い始めて、やっと曲を書かなきゃって思った。
始めはピアノを弾きながら、ぶつぶつ独り言みたいに。
でもそうしてるうちに、メロディがやって来てくれた。待っててくれたみたいに。
あの瞬間は本当になんとも言えない。
ずっと自分のどっかにあるって信じてたものにやっと、見つけて触れるようになった。
お産ってこんな感じなのかしら。まだわかんないけど。
とにかく、早く自分の宝物を人に見せたい気持ち!

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